I sit here writing this with doubts floating through my head. I know that I love food and love the people in the industry but something seems amiss. I've only been a chef for 6 years but in the last 6 weeks I have fallen into a hole I can't seem to get out of.
I have found myself restless, feeling like I am stuck, drinking more and just feeling downright sick and sad. I'm fairly sure that other chef's/waiter's/industry people have felt this way and I am seeking advice.
I am working with a very talented, passionate individual who albeit being quite intense has taught me a lot. But it is not enough. His passion is infectious but it is not rubbing off on me. Logically it should be making me more motivated for work but it seems to be driving me away. I have realised that I don't have anywhere near as much talent as most other chef's, I don't have the passion I used to, am newly married and haven't had a day off with my wife in a month, noticed that my knees are starting to go and am really feeing my body lately.
I have come through a lot to become a chef. Namely:
1. Attempted murder by another group of staff members
2. Multiple shoulder dislocations which resulted in a shoulder reconstruction
3. Bullying at work - walkman stolen, jacket drawn on and ripped, pictures hung on walls of me with abusive messages etc...
I have wanted to quit after each of these esp the murder one but have managed to get myself back. This time however it just seems a lot different. Something is missing. So, My options are:
1. Do my pastry chef's apprenticeship - I'm not sure this is what I need but it's an option I guess
2. Do my Bachelor of Business with Dual Majors in Tourism & Marketing/International Business - Still in the industry but an office job. Which would be fine as long as the job keeps me interested.
3. Do my Bachelor of Business/Bachelor of Arts - Let's me get into either business or journalism. Journalism would be interesting because I could do food writing. But I can't write.
4. Bachelor of Education - I can teach high school kids about food & hopefully get them interested in the industry.
5. Become a Paramedic - Talk about job satisfaction! But a bit traumatic.
I am relatively inexperienced and need advice or ideas! Help! Thanks guys!
Edited by roosterchef21, 23 June 2008 - 11:00 PM.